this post will be wordy

today's rehearsal sucked so bad. we all sang like pathetic cats falling off a building. mrs lek gave us some negative comments and obv. most of us weren't pleased by it. she commented that we sounded like 'irritating houseflies' and somehow, that comment didn't affect me in anyway. i felt.. normal.

i was and wasn't pleased with myself. it was really hot and i think that all of us were thinking about migrating to alaska or stripping. so, i guess that kinda got us down and mad and stupid. cos we let the weather affect our performance.

i think i did well, for the performance. i'm not afraid to say that. despite the sweltering shizz weather, i actually smiled and sang properly. i thought about bright voices and i was proud of myself.

however, i will say that my performance sucked because of some people who refused to cooperate. our choir motto 'one heart, one voice, one family' so it all comes down to the 'all for one and one for all' shizz and it was really shit.

i'll admit that i hate my CCA sometimes. not really the CCA but rather the people in it. we know all the techniques, we know all the notes, but we don't do it. i do it, and i'm proud of it. i'm not trying to be show offy or anything but why shouldn't i be proud of it?

i hope some choir people are reading this, and i hope that they can understand me, the seniors, the SLs, mrs lek and ms lee. we keep repeating the same darn words, but it is only because the words can't get into some people's brains.

i'm pretty upset with some of the people who got mad at mrs lek, cos of her comments. it just proves that they don't understand. getting all bimbo pissy won't get us a gold for SYF, it might actually get us down. like bronze, down.

i've worked hard and i know a couple who had worked very hard, too. and those people probably understand the way i feel now. not triggered and angered by the harsh comments today, but ready for it.

as an SL, i intend to get everyone to do their best tomorrow. whether they like it, or not. and i shall change some of their morbid minds. kinda offending, but whatever. i don't care, really.
i really really want the choir to achieve something that can make us all proud. not really a gold or silver but discipline, commitment and bright voices.