kill myself

OKAY THE PERFORMANCE WENT HORRIBLE, FOR ME.
COS THE BAND CONDUCTOR SAID THAT THE PIANO SCREWED THE SONG.

My tempo was slow.
I made mistakes.
I'm so serious, I'm typing in caps.

Oh Gawdd, please if you're a friggin sec one (2009) please tell me you can play better than a Grade 8 sucker like moi. REPLACE ME.

At least the band conductor thought that the choir was good. NO HANG ON HE SAID IT RUINED THE WHOLE DAMNED THING. I screwed the choir.

Sorry ):
I'll do better for Shi Ba Gu Niang and whatever shit we're doing on Chinese New Year. I swear I'll do better.

SORRY.