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i deleted the previous post.
it's really really dark outside. my maid's pissed at me, i'm so sad i could kill myself (sarcasm, sarcasm) no, i'm really really sad.

see, gene is not "always so happy". gene can be sad too. really sad.

serena is so sweet :) (still sad, dammit, why?) someone's knocking on my door. euk (?)! it's so annoying. i'm just going to ignore it. i shall pour my heart out. it might make me feel better.

my mum apologized to me yesterday after she got snappy at me. i just ignored her. oh dear God, i'm so sad, i said 'haha' without meaning it. i can't type. there's no words in my head. i feel so stupid.

i want to scream at the world.